You know, I don't know what emotion to feel right now. My oldest kid is in jail. He's only 19 years old and he's in jail.
He's always been stubborn and strong willed but I had hoped he would straighten his life out and now this. Drugs, guns and gang life. It all looks so appealing to teenagers. To be tough and untouchable...so they think. I don't get it. Why be so stupid?
I kicked him out of my house over a year ago because he was bringing this into my house and I just couldn't have it. He broke all the rules I gave him and he had to go.
I am ashamed of him.

Divorce, been there, done that.  Four years ago I divorced my husband.  Being divorced has it's advantages and then again, it has it's disadvantages.  I love coming home and not having to worry about answering to anyone.  That's especially nice.  No one to pitch a fit whenever I buy something new or eat out or decide to watch TV instead of wash the dishes.  Yes, that's nice.  But coming home to an empty house sucks.  Now I like my alone time but sometimes it gets to be too much alone time.

Sometimes I wonder if I should have tried harder to make things work.  I don't know.  I guess I never will. 

I get tired of always being alone and would really like to have someone with me.  I miss sex.  Can you believe it???  I said that out loud!  I miss sex!  Who would have ever thought it!!  LOL